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[July 19th, 2008 @ 11:38am] |
hello :D
soo , idk , i really wanted to start up a blog again.
i cannot believe where i am now compared to when i used to write in this... wow.
& yet ,
this is my first post , and i have pretty much nothing to say ;/
i didn't do too much today ... joel is in charlexvoix right now ... t's kinda like missing an arm , if you know what i mean . i had a very un-eventful day , which was ok ... because after this last week it feels great to do nothing. it was a rough week for sure. i get so drained. i did go tanning today , and made a starbucks run. that was seriously all. joel will be gone untill tuesday :(
thankfully tomorrow , i have PLENTY of homework to keep me busy. so Ross ( my medical assisting school ) is supposed to start July 28th.
that's pretty much a week away ... time has been flying by. i'm really excited , but im still waiting to hear if im gonna make it into that class ... otherwise i will have to wait untill september to start , which would be kind of devastating to me! Ross has been in the back of my mind for so long ... since i heard about it from a classmate , It seemed like a quick way to get me out of the position I am in ... and it gets my foot in the medical field as well , networking is everything sometimes. I am hoping that when i complete the program , I will land a job in oxford or the lake orion area and have enough capital to get a small apartment , or place to rent. I might make attempts to ditch my saturn for a VW , and go on a small ikea shopping spree assuming i can get a place in the works . nothing too sporadic ... at least i don't think so? :) 30k isn't anything too extravagant ... but it will be a start for sure. I'm sure I'll have all kinds of updates from my Ross experiences. especially when clinicals hit ...
it's going to be intresting when i hit the hematology clinicals ... thats like blood drawing , injections , etc ... im sure ill be fine once i do it .. but i have a little bit of a problem to overcome ... but its something i need to tackle for sure to get to where i want to be.
i dont know what it is ... i can watch a doctor do any surgery , and trauma ... but pull the needle out and draw blood .. ahh. something about the way its done .. its all in the head though , trust me .. i have come a long way in the last couple of months with this. I just know the medical field is my calling ... its something i have wanted to do my whole life. but , anyway. i am hoping to get a camera soon , it makes blogs that much better! ... my good camera broke. depressing. urgh ... anyways ... perhaps i'll update tomorrow :)
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[September 29th, 2006 @ 11:57pm] |
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Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable.
with that being said. im moving on from my last update.
i just got home from the gym. it was a great workout.
i put everything i had into it! lol .. my mile was better than it was tonight
then when i was running everyday , and my weight training was good too.
i pushed myself ... so yeah im feeling pretty good right now.
i am so happy my dad got me a trainer , she has helped so so much.
and now i really think im finally going to get somewhere..
im so bummed about the race being so soon. i know its only a 5k , but october 7th is going to come fast.
and being that i haven't kept up with the running 3-5 miles EVERDAY .. ( the move , etc , threw me off )
i dont know how im going to do in the race. it's not like i want to rank or anything , i just want it to be good for ME .
i guess i should just focus on finishing it & just doing my best.
im running it mostly for my mom , since it IS breast cancer race and all .
i know there will be like SERIOUS runners there
& walkers too .. So it's all good.
tonight was kind of a depressing night before the gym.
i came home from work , and slept till richard called at like 8 i think ?
then i tried to keep sleeping , that didnt work. so then i hung out with my dad for a bit ,
finally made my way to the gym @ 10 . & that was my night .
an exciting life i live. i hate not knowing alot of people here.
thats all about to change though , i can promise that .
my dad and i have been talking , we both miss michigan alot.
even my dad is kind of dumpy right now .. he has made comments about how everyday is for him.
and like how " EXCITING" it is ( sarcastically ) ... we have also talked about MI & the things we liked about it.. what we miss.
we even have shed a couple tears over it one night .. not just about that , but that and our life in general ... lol .
we won't be going back though. he NEEDS to be here. we don't have a choice at the moment.. since he has an agreement with the bank.
it'll be all okay though , were just going to have to make the best of it & be as positive as we can !
i booked my flight today finally for MI ... i will be there october 20-26th & im hella excited. sarah and i are going pumpkin patching ! yessss . i love traditions.
and the fact that we are able to keep them alive..
yep. well . i have no life right now, so expect plenty of updates.
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[September 28th, 2006 @ 12:59am] |
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i dont even know who reads this , i don't even care .. im kind of in hopes that richard doesn't read this , i know he has an LJ , but i dont think he even remembers the password ( longgg time ago ) & has never mentioned to me that he reads mine..
but , i seriously dont even know what happened tonight. this last week my feelings haven't been the same , something kept just telling me something wasn't right .. something was missing , i dont know how to explain it.. i wanted things to work . i wanted to FORCE it to work if need be , because i loved MOST of ithe relationship, i "loved "him.
tonight , i go to see him & the absolute perfect night is like .. there already WAITING. everything was seriously so perfect & adorable. omgosh.& of course just leave me to ruin it all .. i feel like i dont deserve anyone.. i want to sleep forever. everything i had intended has been ripped apart. now everything is left in the dark.. like a tunnel with no end. what happens next? more than anything right now , i wish i could go back in time , so i could take away the hurt i caused people. i'd love to go back home , to oxford.. to stay. where i feel like i belong , where my family is , as now there is no benefit of being here.. nothing to look forward to .
unfortunately neither of those will happen & im only left with tomorrow.. a new day.
they say time heals everything , but not once have i found it to be true.. which leads me back to this whole relationship thing , no one will be right for me but that special boy at home. i think thats what dating is all about, finding out " who is the one" + what you want and dont want in someone.
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[September 19th, 2006 @ 12:13am] |
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hey darlins`
how is everyone?
im doing wonderful at the moment.
life is just ... good.
for once , i have no worries . regrets . & im just mentally .. okay.
today was my first official day of work : it went well .
i had to work dining room , so i was like taking people's trays , wiping down tables , taking dishes to the back , etc etc.
not exactly my area! hah.. but i did ok ( i thought ) & the kid thats training me kept saying how smart & quick i was. LOL.
as if you have to have skill to do that stuff or something?! but tomorrow i will be working register , which i think will be so much better =]
they cross train everyone incase someone is sick or whatever .. we all can help eachother out that way , so i gotta know how to do it all .
but yeah. my dad came at lunch time to see me .. haha , he is the greatest sometimes. it made me feel loved.
my dad and i also had dinner tonight at hooters.. heh. that place is suprisingly so good. then , we came home & went for a 1.5 mile walk.
thats a pretty long way for my dad since he is just starting out , im really proud of him . it was a nice walk . like i mentioned , we live in the heart of the city ...
so it was cool cuz we walk by tall buildings and resturants and stuff , so it's not just like .. TREES! lol . we took boo - boo too .
so tomorrow i have work from 11-2 & then i have to my daddy's office to see somethings he wants to show me , then go to the gym for circut training & then probablly dinner with my dad or grocery shopping [ one or the other ] , and thennnn .. i have a cycling class at 6:30 . i love being busy , and its all the things i enjoy & benefit from.
like .. a job = money & working out = getting rid of my grossness. all while its something to DO , instead of sitting here like a fatty online.
oh .. i also went to the post office today , i sent out my school stuff .
im gonna graduate soon ! aren't ya'll happy? lol .
can't be a failure in life ... im so excited for college. i wanna get it done & over with. mm`k well more soon. i really wish more people were on this like they used to be. it's just more fun that way. ohh well .
love love love.
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[September 14th, 2006 @ 11:44pm] |
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well , good news.
when i went back to panera , i got hired on the spot =]
that was kinda` exciting. i have to go there tomorrow at 3 to fill out paperwork & stuff `
im assuming ill start monday , but i will find out tomorrow.
i went to the gym today , i love it! .. and i also have my first training session is this saturday @ 1 . im excited.
i think im gonna get my butt kicked though , haha. i talked to my trainer today on the phone. she has an accent , its cute. lol .
so last night i went out .. it was fun , we kind of just galavanted around lol .. panera , starbucks , marshalls , target , walmart . you know ...
i was late though , and got in trouble =/ oops.
well thats pretty much it i guess.
saturday i guess the boy + and i are going to busch gardens again ... then the mall , then the gym , then lunch at my work ..
he wants to "check it out " hm.
sunday i'll be hanging out at home , my dad and i also have shopping to do. i need kahki pants .. and jeans! gr.
- love youu all .
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[September 12th, 2006 @ 9:26pm] |
well .. florida is getting better each day .
i had a great day on sunday , we went to busch gardens , which was great ...
then yesterday i didn't really do much .. stayed home , cleaned the house a bit , you know ..
today was sweet.. a friend suggested a couple days ago that i should apply at panera ( it's right next door to my house ) he supposively saw a huge now hiring sign that i definitely didn't see ... well i went there today to apply! i convinced my dad to let me. the sign was definitely there & yeahh .. it was HUGE . so i turned in my app and then like three diferent people looked at it & finally the manager lady asked me if i could do an interview at 2 tomorrow. so im hoping i can land the job. it would be monday - friday 10 -2 !
not bad at all . & i would be a cashier.. intresting.
so after i went and applied , i came home , & cleaned some more .. then my dad got home from work , we did dinner , went to publix & he took me to join the gym! im so excited. i love the gym, and it's right across the street & he also got me three personal training sessions , & a nutrition session . im way excited. im hoping i can get on track and finally meet all my goals.
so yes, florida is definitely getting better.
if i get that job , ill hopefully meet some new people..that will be god too.
i do love our location here in clearwater. it's like the heart of the city . i kinda dig it .
haha .. funny to think how much i hated it three days ago.
tomorrow i am going to the gym , interview , then im going to probablly head down to the beach & lay out .. get some sun , then when richard gets out of work , ill head his way .. we made plans to do some clean house tomorrow. that boys room is a disaster at the moment ! so were gonna fix it all up. it's gonna be fun =]
okay , well .. i just wanted to let you know that im making it here .. i dont hate it as much as i thought & possibly was being slightly over dramatic?! lol .
love all of youu .
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[September 8th, 2006 @ 3:49pm] |
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day three in florida.
i hate it here .
i have already been attacked by "sand fleas " they got like my whole body .. grr .
people are rude here .
traffic is horrible .
it's hot and humid .
i miss family & friends .
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[August 30th, 2006 @ 12:14pm] |
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i felt the need for an update , although i have nothing exciting. I am still in michigan . we were supposed to leave last sunday , then today .. now were moving IN our condo on the 5th! Im not sure yet what day we are leaving , cuz it's a two day drive , and i was gonna try to fit in a baby sitting day for my neighbor. i DO know i will be in Florida by the 6th because my dad promised i would be there by then for Richard's birthday! I have thought of so many things to do for it , but none of them will work . it's kind of sad. i can't say my ideas though incase he ever happens to read this and they do work out or something. He already knows were going to dinner though . Im taking him to this nicer place [ can't say ] so we can dress up & it's just more intimate that way , it's really good too =] so , yeah im excited . i just hope everything works out and is good , so he has a good birthday !
so i went to lunch with denae yesterday ... we went to panera , erica and sarah came too .. it was fun , we were there forever talking and stuff. after that , i stopped by wca. just to say hey and stuff ... it was kind of wierd. and , as much as i love wca and everyone there , im kind of happy im parting from it . it's the same old thing . i will dearly miss everyone though <3
so thats like all thats been going on with me really ,, doing school , and just fixing to leave , all that good stuff , you know? still can't wait to get down to florida. i can't wait to see richard , and go to the beach , join the gym , tan ! lol start working too ! i'll probablly update when i finally get to florida . love to all of youu :]
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[August 23rd, 2006 @ 1:50am] |
my dad got back from clearwater this evening ..
were moving for sure still .. like it's all set to go. condo and all ..
soo , were out of here in just about a week ..
things are turned around , FINALLY . i really didnt know how much
of things i could take with that aspect of my life. thankfully now , they are
better than i ever thought they would be with the situation in all seriousness. i have nothing else i want right now , but dad to be a dad , and let me be a kid.
yeah well .. i just felt the need to update. short .. i know.. im kinda sorta a lightweight now when it comes to sleep.
im so tired and like falling asleep right now while typing.
i must go . update more later on ... <3 ...
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[August 12th, 2006 @ 12:48pm] |
OKAY!
finally , i know what is going on.
its in writing now ya'll .
i am definitely moving to clearwater.
we got the final call today. everything is kinked out.
and works. i am so freaking excited , you don't even know.
we don't have to go to florida on the 15th either thank goodness.
so now we have to focus on finding the right house.. and then were off.
i should be leaving in the next couple of weeks max. they need my dad down there
as soon as possible , so we have to move real fast . i'll miss michigan , and my family and all
but we will visit alot , especially all the holidays . . . but , im definitely looking forward to being down there
with baby && looking forward to beachin` it too . not to mention learning the mortgage business .. good money there.
i cannot wait to join a gym again either , and finally get a trainer. i just want to be settled . even if its only for a full year.
at least i know im there for a year .. it's nice. ok , well i had to share the news. im like all wack crazy.
today im going to novi with my aunt and cousin , im fixing to run right now .. then i have to shower and all that .
you guys all have a WONDERFUL day !! xo .
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[August 6th, 2006 @ 2:13pm] |
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hey there.
well today is sunday. sundays are soo boring , lemme tell you.
im feeling alot better about things lately . like .. for starters :
my mind has been everywhere trying to think of where we will end up.
finally , im thinking i have a good concrete idea . now , unfortunately , i will
not know in writing untill about the 16th . but the bank we went and seen ,
are actually incredibly intrested , and the trip wasn't a waste at all .
on friday , they gave my dad a proposal . it's not exactly what he wanted ..
but on the 15th he has to go to clearwater and meet with them again , and
they are going to discuss " terms " and negotiate on the "proposal" if that makes any sense.
so , with that being said ... we would need to be in the clearwater/ saint pete area of florida.
( where the bank is ) . my dad and i talked about it and decided that we thought instead of buying
a house , we could rent a little condo or something for a year . and then maybe build a house .
i like that idea much better anyways . we have found two condos. one is in clearwater on the beach about
25 mins away from the bank .and the other is in saint pete & is 14 mins away from the bank.
obviously saint pete would be more logical , but we really would like to be on the beach if were going
to live in a condo . so yeah , im all for that . if you try to buy a house down in florida on the ocean , you can expect to pay about
4 + million . so a condo is just wonderful . lol. both of them have 2 bedrooms , and 2 baths .. and the saint pete one has a den as well.
it will be a change , definitely . but im okay with it . the beach makes it all worth it , not to mention richard being like 30 mins away.
so , clearwater is also close to USF , which is cool .. cuz i like that school alot . i don't know if i could ever get in , but i plan on applying.
then next will be a job & a gym of course. so , yeah .. thats what seems to be going down as of right now. i wouldnt be suprised if this all changes in like a week , but i like to just think i know whats going on . but the proposal kind of gives me the idea that it's all for sure.
gahh , so i wrote like a novel . oh , i have been running everyday . it's pretty great .. im noticing a very slight difference already again.
right now, im running about three miles a day , eventually i want to run 5 .. then 7 , then +
im really starting to love it . i highly doubt i can get the results i want from just running though. i plan on getting a trainer when i get to florida ,
get me started on some weight lifting .. tone up .
mm yeah so this post was kind of pointless .. i always come here to like get everything off my mind. lol. whether its bad or good.
i wouldn't blame anyone if they didnt read this . =]
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[August 4th, 2006 @ 4:03am] |
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I never knew how happy one person could make me . <3 .
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[July 28th, 2006 @ 3:09pm] |
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hey . well , LJ is still slowly continuing to die. but thats okay , im still a fan . Uhm , so i went to Florida , i was gone like a week + . We had planned to be there for 2 weeks , but came home early . We got in last night . Im so happy to be home . thats all i have to say about that . It was such a long drive =/ Never again pleaaaase. But anyway , I have probablly gotten my point across because of my myspace bulletien.. but , i am just going to assume for now that im staying in Michigan . I am applying for a job today at great lakes athletic club & i should get a call in a couple of weeks , because all of their summer help is leaving to go back to school & such .. so it might be really good timing. I would LOVE to work there. I used to be like obsessed with that place , untill i couldn't go anymore. How Ghey , i know. so yeah , i felt the need to update. i didnt take many pictures , nothing worth seeing lol. but ill post maybe one or two later. right now im fixing to shower , then my dad wants to go to lunch .. oh joy! more food .. gr. but! i am happy to say , i did not gain an ounce while on vacation! i should have been loosing , but we ate out so much .. kind of makes things difficult , i kept a handle on eating .. but just enough to maintain. it's okay , ill take it over gaining anyday. well , have a good one ! <33
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[July 9th, 2006 @ 5:51pm] |
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13 dayss till charlexvoix , or CX as some of us like to call of it :)
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[July 6th, 2006 @ 1:33am] |
i had a great week up north .. lots of fun , no makeup like all week , scrubbs , we so fit in with skidway hoes. lol.
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[July 6th, 2006 @ 1:22am] |
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i miss the beach && would totally dig a vacation right now ...
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[June 19th, 2006 @ 2:45am] |
its been 84287894 days.
idk what my deal is , i
have been sucked into myspace more.
i suppose. anyway .. im back living
with my father in oxford , i will be attending
waterford christian academy once again
in the fall =] && tomorrow my world is
about to pretty much be turned upside down
&& all around (possibly) <- but , in a good way .
please please please.
last week was a blast .. saw joel nearly
every day , saw nae a few times , we all played
at the park .. it was a good time. got all of us
wishing soccer season was a little closer i think.
joel and i hit upp` the tennis court a couple of
times as well .. we did alright , kept the ball going.
i made the poor boy run a few times from some outbound serves
however,opps =/
- so i had like a messed up dream last night.
it was actually about joel & i .. but also lauren's friend
mandi , go figure. i woke up in a panic , like my heart was pounding
& i had tears in my eyes, not to mention a plastered face from dried tears
( from the begining of the dream?? ) woah , let me tell you. dreams truly are whack.
i was so thankful to wake up and relize it was all fake & then i called joel lol , to
make sure everything was normal. it's really rare for me to remember any of my dreams.
noww , crazy yess .. but i think i am allergic to mosquitos. i got bit by one when joel was chipping golf balls outside , and my elbow swelled up , and last night when i was on the computer , i got bit by one , and i got really dizzy and my legs hurt really bad ,
i swear its the mosquitos.. so maybe thats why im remembering & having these nutso dreams.
mosquitos have a ny-quil effect , perhaps? yeahh .. im just babbling.
im done now that i have wrote quite the novel .
im so boredd && dont wanna sleep =/
helpp me. ah .
love to you all .
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[June 4th, 2006 @ 11:02pm] |
ello!
so it has been like 10+ days since i have updated.
i blow at updating sometimes. im a busy girl though ( k i n d a ` ) lol .
anyway , over memorial day weekend , we went up north , it was alot of fun.
sarah was home of course , and we went jetskiing , and boating , swiming , fishin`
all that good stuff. then work tue-fri .. then fri night i came home , seen jojo , we went to palace vision , i didn't really like it ;/ nae slept over .. we watched cheerleader nation all day till she left.
- then sat my dad and i hung out all day! coffe , lunch , mercedes dealer , mall .. it was a good time!
then today my dad and i went to my aunts for a cookout , then home , and i went and seen joel , we did starbucks and then stopped by his house for a few mins.
i wanted to see him before i left. it was fun. i love him. yepp.
so home tom. to flushing , and back to work! .. hmm.
well , i hopefully will be updating soon.
- chelle
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